When I grow up, I wanna be a…
Now there’s a sentence I was never able to finish.
It is frustrating not to know what to do with your life. And it is more frustrating when everyone uses the word excellence to describe something professional. In this world we live in everything must be excellent.
What about those things that are plain and simple? That are just good? Aren’t they good enough? Oh, asking this I’m thinking about the answer someone will give “Good is not enough!” Why?
Is it more important to get through life and get to the end and think “My life was absolutely perfect!” or on the other hand “My life was good… better than good, but not perfect! I failed, I learned, I fell, I got up… I LIVED!” And maybe, just maybe some of us are not supposed to have a talent, something they’ll be excellent at it. Maybe some of us are supposed to worry about other things.
What other things?
Well… if you remind me saying I wasn’t supposed to get married. Point taken, and point made. I’m not married. And I always thought that I wasn’t going to be one of those girls that finishes college and gets married (again, this same subject), puts career on the side and becomes a “soccer mom”. I could not be more on the opposite side than this! If some “soccer mom” is reading this (which I don’t believe anyway), please forgive me, but I’m not actually criticizing your life. I promise I’ll make you believe in me!
The words in my book in those days were definitely career and struggle. I wanted so much more, I knew I had to struggle. And so I did. Struggled to become the person I am today. Struggled to be successful. Struggled to be in a major firm, where everyone’s excellent. I am surrounded with excellence! And now it’s time to say “Enough with the excellence! Enough with the suits! Enough with the pressure! Enough with the look “I make a lot of money and I’m that good!!!”
But I still don’t know how to finish that sentence… When I grow up I wanna be a…
I don’t have a clue there. Maybe something…
- where I’m the one in charge;
- where clocks are not that important (not the easiest….);
- where I could be creative;
- where I could travel around the world (dream on dreamer);
- where I could hold a camera.
These are my clues for today.